sad....

just heard about this and it made me sad......

my babies. . .

my babies all cuddled together

as you may know i have two kitties - albus and minerva. when i moved i wasn't able to take them with me. kristin is not a fan of cats and was worried about her rather large dog being scratched up by them. chris lives in an apartment that does not allow pets. i thought it would be okay though. wait until i save some money and get my own place or until chris and i found a place. that plan should have worked out just fine but my mom became worried about how the cat smell and scratchings would affect the sale of the house as she plans to put it on the market soon. my brother also came home for the summer and he is very allergic to albus. so i was told i needed to find them a new home.

i put out a 'desperate plea!' post on myspace and got a few responses but none of them ended up working out. (if those of you who offered end up reading this - thank you so much for even offering! it means a lot!) so my mom called today and said she doesn't know what to do. i don't know what to do. she doesn't want to take them to the shelter but she doesn't feel like she has a choice.

so as you can imagine i'm having a really bad day. i have no idea what to do. i should have planned this whole move better. i should have done a lot of things better but unfortunately i did not and i'm now stuck. i'm going to repost my plea and hope someone else comes along. but my time is running out.

there is no way i can have them brought to a shelter! they are my babies - i am such an awful mom. hopefully i can brainstorm something tonight. if you think of any ideas please pass them along - i need them!

albus

minerva

Another Bedroom

my newest bedroom home

one of my new roomies - moose

i'm back! (to the blogging world that is)

i finally made that big move - to yet another bedroom. someday i will have my own home - complete with a kitchen and living room and bathroom and all kinds of good things :)

i was supposed to move on sunday but plans changed. i found i was not nearly as prepared to move as i should have been (i'm a massive massive procrastinator!). i also found i was sadder than i thought i would be. i love duluth and will miss it a lot - especially this time of year! i will also miss my parents home - they will be moving to suburbia this summer and the house i've lived in since 6th grade will be ours no more. so all of that combined and i was a little stressed. so chris and i spent sunday driving around and eating WAY too much food (what? did you think i'd actually pack more...please...)

monday we made the move. it was 44 degrees when we left duluth - the lake was absolutely beautiful with marshmellow like fog sitting right on top of it. when we reached the cities it was a whopping (yes - i said whopping) 81 degrees! Insane and very nice! i spent the day unpacking and knitting and chatting with kristin when she got home. then i headed over to chris's to enjoy a bottle of wine - we are becoming lushes.....

today i planned on starting my job search. i don't however have internet on my computer (so i'm currently borrowing kristin's spiffy brand new one - thanks kristin!). i tried to turn on mine but the monitor is not working (and yes - i've double checked it multiple times to make sure the cords are all plugged in properly - although i'm sure as soon as i get someone to help me they will fix it with no problems...sigh....). so - due to that fact i don't have access to my resume i'll just save the jobs i find and apply to them tomorrow. then i think i'll knit. or nap. or drink some wine. it's wierd being unemployed - you become instantely lazy - or so is the case with moi.

p.s. i've found myself getting slightly carried away with these label things. ah well.....

ar$%(Q&$V...wha?

this photo was taken the last time i had to pack

exactly.

it's one of those days when your brain abosolutely refuses to focus on any one thing for more than a fraction of a second. i still have a lot of packing and cleaning to do. but what am i doing? (well aside from the obvious fact that i'm at this moment blogging) i am sitting on my bed with a look of disgust and panic on my face staring at all the material shit that defines my life scattered haphazardly around me.

i want to get rid of it but i can't. i don't need all of it. until i opened the box and looked at it i probably hadn't seen it for years. i've obviously lived just fine without it but i can't seem to bring myself to toss/donate it.

it's one of those times where you stomach gets all twisted. you're brain refuese to function. you feel like a worthless, meaningless, non-motivated, hunk of junk.

i can't decide if i should scream, laugh, or cry. while i'm deciding i think i'll go take a shower. then i'll get my haircut. then i'll resume my post on the bed and stare.........