SILVER

yes. that would be my mouth (and my crazy lookin' eyeball). that would also be my temporary crown. ain't it just so darn puuurty?


i was pretty nervous going to the dentist today but was worried for nothing. the whole procedure was completely painless - for which i was very grateful. although the numbness has yet to wear off - and when it does the dentist said my gums would be tender. ouch. so i popped an ib profen just to be on the safe side.


i was pleased (well - pleased would be the wrong word i suppose) to find out that my bill was only $800. i can't believe i just said only $800 (for a tooth). better than the $1200 i had heard some people quote. i still don't have my new dental insurance information so they let me pay half with the promise to call as soon as i recieved my card. hmmm...this was just the temporary crown though. perhaps the next appointment will cost even more making the total about $1200? ohhh sadness....



((DEAR GOD WILL THE PERSON WHO'S CAR ALARM IS GOING OFF DIRECTLY BELOW ME PLEASE TURN IT OFF. BEEP-BEEP BEEP-BEEP! why do people even get car alarms. hello idiot - hearing it go off does not make us want to call the cops to prevent a crime. it makes us want your car to get stolen and you to get pelted.))


anyhow. after the dentist we stopped the grocery store to pick up soft foods. instant mashed potatoes. real potatoes. hummus. pudding. ice-cream. i don't want anything to happen to this temp causing yet another appointment. it must last until next thursday.


in other news. the co-worker of mine who's shower was supposed to be today was cancelled. mind you we still ate all the food that was brought in but the mom-to-be was absent. she checked into the hospital on monday night and is still there. dehydration and a few other problems. i'm pretty sure she's going to be just fine but keep her in your thoughts. i know she is not coming back to work. even if she tries - we're gonna kick her out :)


alright - that's all my news. i'm off to watch tv/crochet until i can feel my tongue/lips/jaw/ again. then perhaps i'll have some mashed potatoes. cheesy ones. then some ice-cream with bailey's on top. mmmmmmm.......(what weight loss challange??)

Bone Broke

as you may have gathered from the previous post i am not in the best of moods. i'm extremely frustrated.

frustrated because....

- i did what i was supposed to, right? i went to college. i earned a degree. i got a full time job with benefits. but after all my bills are payed each month i have basically nothing left over for food or gas.

- i haven't been able to help chris out with the rent. it makes me feel awful. i feel like a huge mooch.

- banks charge me $68.00 dollars for a measly $10.00 'oops adventure' into the negative.

- i just realized that i pay almost a hundred dollars in interest per car payment. wtf??

- i have to start a 401k and an IRA - but with what exactly i'm not sure....

- my paychecks are basically gone the day i get them.

- my mouth is falling apart and insurance will only cover half the costs. granted it's half and i'm thankful but i cannot afford the other half.

- my phone is dying. i need a new one. too bad my money tree died.

it's just so damn irritating. and the whole crap of it is is that i was just coming to terms with it. fine. i'll have debt. at least i'm happy. i have a great family and friends and with them i'll never end up homeless. but this whole taking almost seventy fucking dollars out of my account just pushed me over. i needed that to pay bills. needed it.

i have a car payment each month. i have insurance on that car. i have my own insurance. i have a credit card payment (which i had to get in the first place becuase i couldn't afford to pay my car insurance while i was looking for a job). i have a computer payment. and yes - after this i have about $30 left over. $30 to buy gas, groceries, and oh yeah - start that 401K and IRA with. seriously....

how the crap am i ever going to be able to afford a house. a wedding. a baby. - hell - food. gas.

i need to make more money. i need to look for a job that pays more money. but oh yeah - can't fit into the my interview clothes yet! and oh yeah - can't buy more interviews clothes that fit becuase i'm fucking broke.

piss it.

Another Reason....

...why banks continue to suck ass.....



i understand i went negative in my checking account. i also understand that i deposited money to cover it that same day. must you still charge me a $68.00 service fee??



oh yes - that's right. you must because you suck.



the other reason banks suck.

well that sucked....

i'm getting a crown!

not that kind of crown......

ugh.

i've always had rather shitty teeth. i blame my mother. bad genes. but i've never had to get a crown done :( i'm not worried about the pain factor but the money factor. good god in heaven are they ever expensive! i work full time and have insurance and still cannot afford the basic things in life let alone spending close to $800 dollars on a tooth! It's the very back tooth - just yank the thing out for all i care....sigh....

oh - and i was rather unimpressed with the dentist that my insurance covers. the office staff were not friendly (it's called a smile - try it sometime) and in general i just did not feel welcome.

hmph.