My Hero

christopher james in action

i want to use this blog spot to thank my boyfriend. he is absolutely wonderful. i really honestly cannot find one thing about him that'd i'd want to change.*


i want to thank him. thank him for putting up with my disorganized state of living/life - and doing it with the most sincere smile. thank him for always making me feel special even when i feel anything but. thank him for making me laugh. thank him for not letting me starve to death. thank him for being the bestest friend i could have asked for.


so - thank you chris. you really have no idea how much you mean to me.








was that incredibly cheesy? i hope not. and even if it is it's all true.











* okay - if i'm going to be 100% honest here - i guess i would change this winning streak he seems to have going. could you please just suck at games?? :)

24

flattering? no. true emotion shown? yes.

no - not 24 the annoyingly addictive t.v. show.


24 as in 24 days without employment.


yes, it is now day 24 in my quest for a job and things are not looking too hot. granted, i have not been out there looking in a way that anyone other than my slacker self would notice - but that doesn't matter.


what matters is the fact that after making a car payment today and realizing that i will really be in danger soon of not having any money i have begun the job search at full speed. it has been annoying thus far (hence the ugly picture).


all those helpful job listing sights are really really really REALLY annoying. i don't know how many accounts i've signed up for or how many log in names and passwords i've forgotten about. each job listing wants you to sign up for it's own account to apply - because god forbid they give you an e-mail, address, or phone number to contact them with.


i did manage to find one job listing that i was qualified for that gave me an actual e-mail address. so i applied for it. i think tomorrow i'm just going to suck it in and apply at some retail stores - i NEED money. starbucks offers insurance for part time - something to consider.


more updates to follow......

b-o-r-e-d

i. am. bored. period.


i got a headache last night and i think it was due entirely to the fact that my brain had no stimulation. it was mad at me.


i thought having some days off inbetween jobs would be a treat - and it is in a way - i'm getting a ton of knitting done - but i just feel so useless. on the other hand i've also been watching a ton of t.v. my current most watched are Top Design (which comes on soon - better hurry it up here) and The Real Housewives of Orange County (i know...i know...it makes me sad too - but they play them back to back to back and i just get sucked in)


kristin works. chris works. they come home from busy days and i've been sitting in the same spot as when they left. not cool.(i should move from the couch to the chair just to show some movement took place huh?)


i need to pick up the pace tomorrow. i think my brain might go on strike if i don't - if it hasn't already...hard to tell in this state....

Another Bedroom

my newest bedroom home

one of my new roomies - moose

i'm back! (to the blogging world that is)

i finally made that big move - to yet another bedroom. someday i will have my own home - complete with a kitchen and living room and bathroom and all kinds of good things :)

i was supposed to move on sunday but plans changed. i found i was not nearly as prepared to move as i should have been (i'm a massive massive procrastinator!). i also found i was sadder than i thought i would be. i love duluth and will miss it a lot - especially this time of year! i will also miss my parents home - they will be moving to suburbia this summer and the house i've lived in since 6th grade will be ours no more. so all of that combined and i was a little stressed. so chris and i spent sunday driving around and eating WAY too much food (what? did you think i'd actually pack more...please...)

monday we made the move. it was 44 degrees when we left duluth - the lake was absolutely beautiful with marshmellow like fog sitting right on top of it. when we reached the cities it was a whopping (yes - i said whopping) 81 degrees! Insane and very nice! i spent the day unpacking and knitting and chatting with kristin when she got home. then i headed over to chris's to enjoy a bottle of wine - we are becoming lushes.....

today i planned on starting my job search. i don't however have internet on my computer (so i'm currently borrowing kristin's spiffy brand new one - thanks kristin!). i tried to turn on mine but the monitor is not working (and yes - i've double checked it multiple times to make sure the cords are all plugged in properly - although i'm sure as soon as i get someone to help me they will fix it with no problems...sigh....). so - due to that fact i don't have access to my resume i'll just save the jobs i find and apply to them tomorrow. then i think i'll knit. or nap. or drink some wine. it's wierd being unemployed - you become instantely lazy - or so is the case with moi.

p.s. i've found myself getting slightly carried away with these label things. ah well.....

ar$%(Q&$V...wha?

this photo was taken the last time i had to pack

exactly.

it's one of those days when your brain abosolutely refuses to focus on any one thing for more than a fraction of a second. i still have a lot of packing and cleaning to do. but what am i doing? (well aside from the obvious fact that i'm at this moment blogging) i am sitting on my bed with a look of disgust and panic on my face staring at all the material shit that defines my life scattered haphazardly around me.

i want to get rid of it but i can't. i don't need all of it. until i opened the box and looked at it i probably hadn't seen it for years. i've obviously lived just fine without it but i can't seem to bring myself to toss/donate it.

it's one of those times where you stomach gets all twisted. you're brain refuese to function. you feel like a worthless, meaningless, non-motivated, hunk of junk.

i can't decide if i should scream, laugh, or cry. while i'm deciding i think i'll go take a shower. then i'll get my haircut. then i'll resume my post on the bed and stare.........

6 Months!

matching cars. marching coats. we are geeks.

6 months ago today I met chris at carrie's wedding (happy 6 months carrie and steve!). we sat next to one another and chatted a bit but not a lot. after the wedding we went to the bonfire down on the lakeshore. we chatted more. we ate hot dogs. we toasted marshmellows. we drank a lot of boxed wine. we looked at the northern lights. i knew i liked him and was therefore rather disapointed when the time came to go home and all he said was 'it was nice meeting you.'

the next day i worked at the candy store. i thought that maybe he might stop in as i had mentioned i would be working. i kept looking and looking but no chris. then i turned around and he was standing there! he asked if it would be alright for him to call me the next time he was in town. i said yes that would be fine. i then told him that i would be in the cities in two weeks and so we set up our first date! needless to say i was super happy! since that time we have talked on the phone every single night. we have managed to see each other whenever we had a free weekend. soon (2 days to be exact) i will be moving down the cities and we'll be able to see each other whenever we want! can't wait!

so - happy anniversary chris! i'm so happy to have you in my life - you amaze me and i love you!

Carrie is Awesome!

Knitting Bag, Bacon Bacon Dip, and Beer Bread! I'm in heaven!

Tonight was both wonderful and sad. Sad because it marked my last knitting/wine/girl chat night with Carrie (while I'm a Duluth resident at least - just because I'm moving doesn't mean this will be the last!).

Wonderful because - well - just look at the above picture! Carrie gave me the most wonderful going away present I could have asked for! A fabulous bag with red white and black (my favorite colors!) cat prints and Tastefully Simple (and absolutely heavenly!) bacon bacon dip and beer bread! That combined with the quality conversation and knitting - it was a perfect evening :)

So I guess this blog is dedicated to you Carrie - thank you for everything! Who knows where I would be right now had you not invited me to that happy hour in August! I think I can literally say that you have changed my life in numerous ways and I'm very thankful for that!

Thank you for a wonderful evening!!

And now it is time for bed! G'night!