Dear Mandy

thank you for the lovely drawing. perhaps the next time you come over it'll be in a frame :)

love,

michelle

Oy! Part 2

so i set the alarm for 8am and woke up at 10am! since then i've been scrambling trying to shower and clean and so far you can't really tell that i've done either.....


the apartment will not be clean by the time company arrives so i'm going to just...not give up...but not stress either. i should exercise. i'll do that. i think i've mentioned it in every blog this week but it really has been going good. and not having time to do it this morning has added to that anxiety - so i'll do it now. megan is busy with nathan and mandy right now anyhow so i won't be meeting up with them until this afternoon. treadmill - here i come!


clean schmean - the apartment looks lived in :)

Oy!

my promise to chris upon moving into the new apartment was that i would be a better housekeeper (since - when pestered - that was his only complaint). so far...well...as you can see it's not going so great.....

hopefully tomorrow morning and i can manage to get myself out of bed early and not only get my exercising done but also clean. the apartment itself isn't too bad - it's mainly the second bedroom. it's become the 'if-it-doesn't-have-a-place-throw-it-on-the-floor' room. this was only made worse due to the fact that we moved in right at the start of the holidays. wrapping paper, clothes, cds, books, yarn....sigh.....

so...yeah....

Things to Do in 2008....

-be a better housekeeper. start with the second bedroom.

-do laundry on a regular basis and do not wait until a mountain has formed on the floor.

-exercise every single day

there's more of course but all i can think about is the cleaning at the moment. partly becuase i'm in the messy room and we have company coming over tomorrow. chris's sister megan will be in town :) i'm excited - she is really sweet but because she lives a few hours away i haven't really got a chance to hang out with her. we're going shopping tomorrow - ikea (good becuase i love ikea and bad because i am so freaking poor**....) so i'm looking forward to that.

alright. time for bed. mia and i had chipotle tonight. bad but SO good. i swear they put crack in their rice. you keep eating even though you know you've gone beyond stuffed. sigh...

**yeah - on top of the crown my other tooth started to hurt and that is very bad becuase that pain means i might need a root canal. curse you mother and your bad teeth genes! that and my phone is dying. cell phones are expensive. hmph. just in case you were wondering i am currently accepting large (or small - but preferably large) financial donations at this time.....

night :)

i feel good!

dananananana....

i knew that i would now......

danananananana....

i feel nice....

dananananana....

like sugar and spice

okay...you get the point :)

no big reason. i just feel good. one reason is the exercising. i'm sticking to it this time. there is absolutely no excuse for me to sit on my ass and not do it. i got up this morning and exercised. that's something i've been thinking about doing and come morning it's just so darn hard to get up. but i will now. i know how good it feels to get on that treadmill - blast some good music and get pumped. afterwards i'm really awake. the shower feels better. i feel better. it's a good. i love it.

also - i have more energy throughout the day. even if i'm bored - my mood stays good.

so yeah - i feel good. and i thought i'd just share that with y'all since i might be too busy to blog tonight. after work i'm meeting my dad for dinner. he's down here on business which is great becuase i left my winter coat in Duluth over Christmas and he's bringing that down. he's also bringing the very large bottle of Bailey's that my brother got us :) in return i'll give him the scarf (that i finally finished!!) that i knitted him for Christmas. then it's home to exercise. maybe some crocheting afterwards.

how are you today?

well that sucked....

i'm getting a crown!

not that kind of crown......

ugh.

i've always had rather shitty teeth. i blame my mother. bad genes. but i've never had to get a crown done :( i'm not worried about the pain factor but the money factor. good god in heaven are they ever expensive! i work full time and have insurance and still cannot afford the basic things in life let alone spending close to $800 dollars on a tooth! It's the very back tooth - just yank the thing out for all i care....sigh....

oh - and i was rather unimpressed with the dentist that my insurance covers. the office staff were not friendly (it's called a smile - try it sometime) and in general i just did not feel welcome.

hmph.

Off to a good start....

so i'm off to a good start - my tooth broke :(

well - part of my filling broke on New Year's Eve and later that night part of the tooth broke. luckily my insurance kicked in yesterday so i can get it taken care of soon (in about one hour to be exact :))

dealing with the insurance company this morning was a royal pain in my ass. because the insurance just kicked in i haven't recieved my cards yet. so i called to get my information. they told me i hadn't selected a dentist and so i couldn't have my information. (note: nothing in the sign up stuff told me i had to pick a certain dentist - in fact i made sure i chose the option that did not) anyhow. i finally found a dentist they accepted and they hopefully faxed my information to them. i asked the very clearly if i was good to go - if all i had do was show up and they said 'yes'. this of course means squat but we'll see.

oh - and for those of you who might have to deal with annoying automated phone systems - press a whole bunch of numbers until they automatically direct you to an actual human being. works every time :)

alright - i'm gonna knit a little more and then it's off to the dentist!

2007 - The Year I.....

...fell in love. truely. i feel like i've known him my entire life. i cannot imagine that life without him. i wish everyone the chance to experience this kind of love....

...realized i was growing up. it sounds to odd to say that when you're 27 - but it's true. i can't put my finger on it but the feeling is there.

...learned how to cope with my depression. well...i guess i've always been able to cope or else i wouldn't be here - but with each bout of it i feel like i gain a deeper understanding of myself. this understanding may not be apparent to those having to deal with the crying and the mood swings - but it's there.

...met some wonderful new friends and became closer existing ones. i've had two jobs this year and at both have met some incredible people at both. i've reconnected with friends that i've known for a long time but feel much closer to now.

...learned how to knit and crochet. i've become slightly obsessed with both. my life is filled with yarn and gagets to work that yarn that i never knew existed. i love it. i feel like i'm good at something for the first time in a long time. and while making a hat may not solve world hunger - i feel good when i see something that i've created with my own to hands. something that can be put to use.

...lost weight and gained it back. today i exercised and plan to do it everday. i want to become addicted to it. not only will i lose that weight again but it'll help with the depression.

...moved into a home. well - not a house - an apartment - but a place that feels like home. chris and i share this place. we'll share it for a few years more to come.

...heard my biological clock begin to tick. it's been there all along i guess but this year it made itself known - big time! my friend carrie found out she was pregnant and gave birth to a beautiful little girl. seeing her change and seeing her with the baby have been an incredible experience - one that i want to experience one day. this year will bring more of that as my friend kelly found out that she is pregnant. i cannot wait to see all of her changes and meet her little one. both woman are/are going to be just fantastic mothers.

...realized how hungry i was. sorry - not part of the actual post but i just realized i haven't had my dinner yet and should probably do that. don't worry though - i'll be posting more soon. i've been absent as of late but i joined the blog 365 (because i might be on crack...).....

so...i'll leave you with this wish......

I hope you have a FANTASTIC new year!