bummed

today i am bummed.

and to be honest i was kinda bummed yesterday as well.

i am currently bummed about the interview that i went on this morning. it was for a temp agency. they make you take those assessment tests. i did horribly on the spelling and grammar and i don't know why! (part of that could be due to the fact that i just spelled 'grammar' 'grammer' and had to fix it) i felt like a complete dumbass. spelling and grammar have never been my strong point but i'm not horrible. thank god for spelling/grammar check - you know that program that comes on every computer out there? maybe they thought i would be too dumb to use this feature. or use a dictionary. who knows.

i am also bummed about how the whole situation was treated. when i sat down for the interview portion she just had this look of pity about her. 'oh - what a shame. such a nice girl but so dumb.' her attitude/facial expressions/and tone of voice just left me feeling like i wanted to cry. i'm NOT dumb. then i got bummed about the fact that i let myself feel bummed about what she thought of me. she had a completely fake air about her and had I not been so bummed i probably would have thrown-up in my mouth a little just watching/listening to her. sigh.

either way they had nothing for me. which in a way is fine - i didn't want to drive all the way to the western side of the city for a job everyday anyhow. and they seemed to only specialize in temp work - not the temp to hire i was looking for anyhow. so there. poo.

speaking of poo. i feel like poo. i look like poo. you may remember - long before i began to blog here - that i lost some weight this past summer. 17.5 pounds to be exact. 38 inches too. it took me about 2.5 months. i looked and felt great! then i slacked off. since i moved i've slacked even more. i'm gaining weight and inches and just feel like poop. chris is in a similar situation (although i still can't see where he's gained any). we did that bmi -piece of crap - and are both overweight. according to that bmi i could lose up to 43 pounds! i can't imagine what i'd look like! and i really don't want to know - that's a lot of weight. i do want to get fit again. i want to loose this 'happy fat.' (as chris and i are terming it - although there is really nothing happy about it) i keep meaning to do it everyday but just end up sitting around and reading. not having a job is draining in a depressing way. you have all the time in the world but end up doing nothing with it....maybe i'm just extremely lazy...

anywhoo - dear god - why did I just say that?

so that is why i am bummed. i am a dumbass and i look and feel like poo. hopefully things perk up soon.


**it has been hours since i posted this blog. i went back to read it over and realized i said 'i currently bummed' and 'it for' - and i wonder why i sucked at the grammer....oops...grammar (that was on purpose)

24

flattering? no. true emotion shown? yes.

no - not 24 the annoyingly addictive t.v. show.


24 as in 24 days without employment.


yes, it is now day 24 in my quest for a job and things are not looking too hot. granted, i have not been out there looking in a way that anyone other than my slacker self would notice - but that doesn't matter.


what matters is the fact that after making a car payment today and realizing that i will really be in danger soon of not having any money i have begun the job search at full speed. it has been annoying thus far (hence the ugly picture).


all those helpful job listing sights are really really really REALLY annoying. i don't know how many accounts i've signed up for or how many log in names and passwords i've forgotten about. each job listing wants you to sign up for it's own account to apply - because god forbid they give you an e-mail, address, or phone number to contact them with.


i did manage to find one job listing that i was qualified for that gave me an actual e-mail address. so i applied for it. i think tomorrow i'm just going to suck it in and apply at some retail stores - i NEED money. starbucks offers insurance for part time - something to consider.


more updates to follow......

b-o-r-e-d

i. am. bored. period.


i got a headache last night and i think it was due entirely to the fact that my brain had no stimulation. it was mad at me.


i thought having some days off inbetween jobs would be a treat - and it is in a way - i'm getting a ton of knitting done - but i just feel so useless. on the other hand i've also been watching a ton of t.v. my current most watched are Top Design (which comes on soon - better hurry it up here) and The Real Housewives of Orange County (i know...i know...it makes me sad too - but they play them back to back to back and i just get sucked in)


kristin works. chris works. they come home from busy days and i've been sitting in the same spot as when they left. not cool.(i should move from the couch to the chair just to show some movement took place huh?)


i need to pick up the pace tomorrow. i think my brain might go on strike if i don't - if it hasn't already...hard to tell in this state....

Another Bedroom

my newest bedroom home

one of my new roomies - moose

i'm back! (to the blogging world that is)

i finally made that big move - to yet another bedroom. someday i will have my own home - complete with a kitchen and living room and bathroom and all kinds of good things :)

i was supposed to move on sunday but plans changed. i found i was not nearly as prepared to move as i should have been (i'm a massive massive procrastinator!). i also found i was sadder than i thought i would be. i love duluth and will miss it a lot - especially this time of year! i will also miss my parents home - they will be moving to suburbia this summer and the house i've lived in since 6th grade will be ours no more. so all of that combined and i was a little stressed. so chris and i spent sunday driving around and eating WAY too much food (what? did you think i'd actually pack more...please...)

monday we made the move. it was 44 degrees when we left duluth - the lake was absolutely beautiful with marshmellow like fog sitting right on top of it. when we reached the cities it was a whopping (yes - i said whopping) 81 degrees! Insane and very nice! i spent the day unpacking and knitting and chatting with kristin when she got home. then i headed over to chris's to enjoy a bottle of wine - we are becoming lushes.....

today i planned on starting my job search. i don't however have internet on my computer (so i'm currently borrowing kristin's spiffy brand new one - thanks kristin!). i tried to turn on mine but the monitor is not working (and yes - i've double checked it multiple times to make sure the cords are all plugged in properly - although i'm sure as soon as i get someone to help me they will fix it with no problems...sigh....). so - due to that fact i don't have access to my resume i'll just save the jobs i find and apply to them tomorrow. then i think i'll knit. or nap. or drink some wine. it's wierd being unemployed - you become instantely lazy - or so is the case with moi.

p.s. i've found myself getting slightly carried away with these label things. ah well.....