Friday, March 28, 2008


i just posted about being bored tonight (which is getting better due to the fact that i went and bought myself some wine :)). i posted this a) because it's true and b) without any knowledge of this......

post from one year ago today (which i just discovered - because i'm bored and had nothing else to do but read through some previous posts...)

strange, no?

a sign i need more excitement? yes.


i am extremely bored. extremely. bored.

i'm craving some good conversation. someone who doesn't mind sittin' around in comfy pants with a glass of wine and just chattin'. hmph.

seeing as how it's 8:30 and i doubt i'll find someone i guess i'll go to the store and grab some wine for myself. that knitting project will turn out beautiful! ha :)

Thursday, March 27, 2008

did you have to point it out?

i'll be the first to admit that my work wardrobe is not exciting. since i gained back the weight i lost i wear pretty much 3 skirts and 3 pair of pants (but mainly the skirts) on a rotating basis. i have a few shirts and cardigans that i also rotate. they aren't flashy - they're earth toney. for the most part i could care less - my desk is so high that people walking in can only see my head anyhow. i have more clothes but i just can't fit into them right now and i don't want to spend money that i don't even have on clothes that i don't want fitting me right now....

that said....

i did not need to hear a (male) co-worker say 'YAY! New shirt!' to me today when i walked by. for one - i've worn the shirt i wore today plenty of times. for two - you wear fucking scrubs and [name of employment] t-shirts every day - like you're one to comment on wardrobe ya doorknob!

i know it shouldn't but it kind of hurt my feelings. i know i don't have big variety but i think i look nice. and who cares if i don't have a big selection? as long as they are clean - i mean i work on a floor were everyone else is in scrubs - pish.

he should have known better.......

Wednesday, March 26, 2008


it's getting very loud........

i'm making and buying baby items left and right for friends. everywhere i turn it's showers. baby yarn. baby clothes. baby pictures. pregnant woman. babies. sigh.....

*don't worry mom - i'll get married first. i promise :)

Issue Resolved. Sort of.....

i got home to find another e-mail from itunes. i think i forgot the mention that this whole time they weren't even sending the e-mails to me. they were sending them to 'girl-with-same-name-as-me-minus-that-first-initial(at)! luckily this girl was able to see the mistake and was kind enough to foward them to me! (she's now thinking about boycotting iTunes as well...)

anyhow - the latest e-mail said that i was not charged and they were sorry they could not help me. i checked my bank account and low and behold the charges had disapeared. so who knows what the fuck happened - but it's over. i'm still rather upset with iTunes and probably won't use them for awhile. perhaps when their tech support decides to get an actual phone number. perhaps when they decide to grow brains. perhaps.....

i have the angry marge picture above because i'm still rather upset with automated answering services in general. they suck.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

iCrap update

wow. i kind of hate iTunes right now.

i tried to do it their way - solve the problem via e-mail. the only problem was that it wouldn't let me send the e-mail without an order number and hello - you didn't give me an order number you crap heads. instead you charged me for a cd 3x and put no record of the purchase attempt in my purchase history so.....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i then proceeded to call Apple tech support - just for the sake of getting a human being. i tried not to be angry on the phone as it wasn't this poor woman's fault. i did a good job considering she kept me on the phone - most of it on hold - for 40 fucking minutes! then i got transferred to some guy in India who asked me what problem i was having with my iPhone! iPhone!?!?! so - i explained the situation again and he told me just to put 'na' in the order number space. gee - thank you! it only wasted 40 minutes of my day....

so - i sent the e-mail to them (explaing everything and why i didn't have an order number) only to come home and find an e-mail in my mailbox from iTunes saying that they would love to help me with my problem but that i forgot to include my order number and that for them to proceed they would need that. WTF?

i wrote back AGAIN and stated about 3 times why i did not have an order number. how many times does it take for them to understand this?? evidently a lot as when i came home they said that they showed no record of my purchase. that i should contact my bank about these charges. that perhaps the charge needed to be authorized before i would get my purhase. WHAT?

for crap's sake iTunes - you fucking charged me 3x for a CD that i did not recieve. i'm sorry that it didn't show up in my purchase history but it clearly showed up on my bank account. i highly doubt that my bank is going to deauthorize it - especially considering it's TCF and they also suck. perhaps iTunes should actually get an actual phone number.

ugh. i'm p-i-s-s-e-d off.....just in case you missed that part.

Pet Diaries

8:00 am - Dog food! My favorite thing!
9:30 am - A car ride! My favorite thing!
9:40 am - A walk in the park! My favorite thing!
10:30 am - Got rubbed and petted! My favorite thing!
12:00 pm - Lunch! My favorite thing!
1:00 pm - Played in the yard! My favorite thing!
3:00 pm - Wag ged my tail! My favorite thing!
5:00 pm - Milk bones! My favorite thing!
7:00 pm - Got to play ball! My favorite thing!
8:00 pm - Wow! Watched TV with the people! My favorite thing!
11:00 pm - Sleeping on the bed! My favorite thing!

Day 983 of my captivity.
My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects.

They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while the other inmates and I are fedhash or some sort of dry nuggets. Although I make my contempt for the rations perfectly clear, I nevertheless must eat something in order to keep up my strength. The only thing that keeps me going is my dream of escape.

In an attempt to disgust them, I once again vomit on the carpet.

Today I decapitated a mouse and dropped its headless body at their feet. I had hoped this would strike fear into their hearts, since it clearlydemonstrates what I am capable of. However, they merely made condescending comments about what a "good little hunter" I am.


There was some sort of assembly of their accomplices tonight. I was placed in solitary confinement for the duration of the event. However, I could hear the noises and smell the food. I overheard that my confinement was due to the power of "allergies." I must learn what this means, and how to use it to my advantage.

Today I was almost successful in an attempt to assassinate one of my tormentors by weaving around his feet as he was walking. I must try this again tomorrow -- but at the top of the stairs.

I am convinced that the other prisoners here are flunkies and snitches.
The dog receives special privileges. He is regularly released - and seems to be more than willing to return. He is obviously retarded.
The bird has got to be an informant. I observe him communicate with theguards regularly. I am certain that he reports my every move. My captors have arranged protective custody for him in an elevated cell, so he issafe..... for now...

(i got this today via e-mail from my mother. it's so true!)

Monday, March 24, 2008

Letter To My Face

Dear Face,

I won't beat around the bush - I'll just come right out and ask it. Why do you hate me?

We had a rather lovely relationship during my adolescent years. Sure - we had a few arguements but for the most part it was smooth sailing. Other kids my age were battling pimples and zits up the ying-yang - but you were good to me. Now that I'm in my 20's though - the tides have turned. Those little arguements have turned into full on battles. Why?

The least you could do is show your anger on my forehead - I have bangs now - it wouldn't be a big deal. But instead you choose the area around my mouth. It hurts. And worst of all - this past week you gave me one in my nose. What could I have done to warrant such pain?

Hmph. I'll wait for your response. I hope we can patch things up. I'm tired of looking like a 14 year old. I hope you understand.

Sincerely yours,


Sunday, March 23, 2008

Great Minds....

...think alike....

how else would you explain the fact that chris and i not only got each other matching Easter baskets but also pooping animal keychains!? that's right, animal keychains that poop (candy). you've probably seen them around and wondered to yourself 'who would spend money on such a thing' and well - now you know :) (i got him the cow and he got me the chicken)


Saturday, March 22, 2008

suckity suck suck suck.....

that's right. suckity fuck sucking suck.

i was trying to be a sweetheart and purchase a cd via itunes for chris's easter basket. i've never ever had a problem doing this before. this time though - the cd didn't download. i tried again. nothing. i tried again (3rd times a charm, right?). notta. the cd did not download. it was not there. but when i checked my bank account itunes had kindly charged me for it 3 times!

how to fix this?! try to fix a mistake like this with itunes and see how far you get. not only are you pissed that you have $30 bucks missing from your account (and when you poor it's a big deal) but you realize there is no phone number for tech support! all itunes support is done online. bullshit. there was nothing there to help me. i called the sales support number and finally got a human being. he told me that he showed no purches on my account. i told him that i realize that but it doesn't change the fact that i was charged by itunes 3 times! he told me he would e-mail the problem to itunes and hopefully i would get an answer in about 24 hours.

gee. thanks! that is was so convienent! so easy! so considerate! in the meantime i'm out 30 fucking bucks and have no cd to give chris. and exactly what am i supposed to do, if in 24 hours, no one fucking contacts me?

itunes technical support - you suck. you suck BIG TIME. piss on you.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

just sniff my area.....

not that area ya perves (vija - i'm talking directly to you!).....*

i woke up to find this outside - it was beautiful!

unfortunately i had to go to work in it. i'd much rather have stayed home and had a snow day with chris. but alas i had to go to work. birthday cards needed to be written out. orders needed to be crocheted.....

i've been rather absent from the blogging world. i mean to blog every night. i've actually had things to blog about (well - not big things. not exciting things. just things). exciting quotes to pass along - like 'it just doesn't feel like holy week' (perhaps you had to be there....). and now that i finally find myself sitting down to blog i realize it's a quarter to midnight and that i should really be brushing my teeth and getting ready for bed. the teeth need to be brushed. i made the mistake of buying a bag of bubblegum eggs and have managed to go through most of the bag. not a really great idea for a poor person with bad teeth.....


and of course my mind goes blank. of course!

i should go to bed. i promise to return soon. in the meantime here are things i might blog about in the near future - things to look forward to. things like trips to the vet's. my job (i know you're dying to hear me complain some more, right?). friends. my amazing boyfriend. oh - and my completely awesome playlist. check it out. the songs rock. a lot.

*the other day (yesterday to be exact) i smelled urine. it was disgusting. chris brought me lunch at work. we sat down to eat with darrah and vija. i smelled urine. it was so strong i could hardly eat. i didn't want to say anything at first. then vija noticed me sniffing around and looked at me like i was crazy so i explained which only continued to get me crazy looks as i was the only one who could smell it. it wasn't me. i don't know. i moved to a new table and tried to convince vija to sniff my area (as in the area i'd been sitting in). she did and didn't smell it. hmph. i've heard of people smelling burnt hair before a stroke - maybe i had a mini stroke and smelled urine. this is pointless. i'm going to bed......

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

oh. dear. god.

i haven't blogged for awhile. i meant to do the blog 365 - i really did. but then one missed blog turned into 3. by the time i got around to back blogging i forgot what i'd even done. i couldn't even come up with any bullshit. ah well - it's just blogging. it's sort of a strange thing when you think about it i guess.....

so, where shall i begin. i'm sure you're all just dying to hear about all the exciting going-ons in my life, aren't you? how about we start with today. it was great. and by great i mean boring, dull and thoroughly embarrassing....

today i went to work. i don't even want to complain about it anymore (but that won't stop me i'm sure...). i've said i like my co-workers (i feel the need to emphasize this...). i think it's me. i start to come up on that year mark and panic. well - not panic. but something - not sure what. i'm scared that one day i'll wake up years from now and realize that for the past however many years i've gotten up and done the same thing every day. sat in the same chair for 8 hours every day. accomplished nothing.

i came home from work yesterday and felt nothing. it wasn't depressing. it wasn't annoying. it was nothing. i felt void. i felt like nothing. luckily i came home feeling like this to see chris. i love him so much! together we make that nothing a something. it makes me feel whole. it makes me smile and giggle.

the one thing that is slightly depressing is not having a damned clue what i do want to do. i used to feel a passion for history. i wanted to preserve it. i wanted to share it with others. i lost that somewhere along the way. perhaps it's the perfectionist in me. i realized one day how so many people were so much more accomplished than i was. they knew more. they did more. they had more motivation. more charm. and rather and try harder i gave up. i don't know what i want to be anymore. i don't want to keep chipping away at my soul anymore through corporate america though. it's eating me. i just cannot stand the fact that i sit in a chair and do nothing for 8 hours a day. i could be making things at home. exercising. learning how to cook. doing something....else...

you want to know my secret wish? i wish that being a receptionist was considered a good job. i wish that i were married. i wish that i were a stay at home mother. i wish my biggest problem was deciding what to make for dinner. i wish i could wear those cute dresses and vacuum in heels. i probably just made a lot of woman roll over in the graves but who cares. that's my (no longer) secret wish. think what you may.

i'll leave you with that. for now i'm going to go empty the dishwasher. then i'm going to tell chris about my night (which is what i mean to post but got sidetracked). perhaps i'll post more tomorrow. perhaps not. i think i'll leave the blog 365 tag just the same. the picture and statement kinda fit me....a lot.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

another addiction...

yes. another addiction. knitting/crocheting books. it started out with those handy little stitch guides for $3 at joann's. then chris's mom bought me a felting book. then i bought a few small baby books at michael's. last week chris took me to a 1/2 priced book store - bad idea. well - not bad really - i got $75 dollars worth of books for $25. bad in that i want to keep going back to these stores and buying more!

at the moment i'm really into the 'hand knits for the home.' it's got a lot of nice patterns - and ones that will incorporate the sewing machine that chris got me for christmas :) i've got a lot of projects on my plate right now - a lady at work just ordered about 11 scarf/collar type garments for her choir group and she wants them done by april! that's good though - i like to be busy doing something i love!

and speaking of which - i'm going to back and knit some before it's time for bed. i'm also going to be watch the campaign coverage (fingers crossed!!)

Monday, March 3, 2008

i LOVE the beatles

the weight loss challange ended today. i lost nothing (and gained nothing - which i guess is good in a way). the girl who won lost 4 pounds. 4 pounds! it's kinda sad that we had this challange going from september until now and the most any of us lost was 4 pounds - and she was already skinny to begin with! ah well. i've lost some inches and still have hope. i want to lose the weight by june. i want to enjoy my summer - perhaps even wear a public (and not just in fron the mirror and getting depressed...)

on a brighter note - a coworker of mine got back from his two week long vacation to vegas. when he told me he was going i told him that he had to see LOVE for me. he didn't go to the show but he did bring my back this awesome t-shirt! he also said i didn't owe him a thing (since i made him a hat for nothing awhile back - my first hat ever). so that was incredibly cool and it brightened my day a ton :)

and other than that - it was a monday. chris and i are about to go watch the second half of the first LOTR movies. i remember not wanting to see the first one - i hated (or thought i did) anything having to do with sci-fi/fantasy. i ended up loving them though. :)

Saturday, March 1, 2008

today was good

today was really good. i didn't do a damned thing.

well, i did - but not the things i normally think/feel i should be doing. usually i feel the need to exercise, clean - do something that everyone generally views as productive. when i normally attempt these things though i never feel satisfied. i didn't enough exercising. i didn't do enough cleaning. etc. etc. so today i woke up early (9am is early for me on a saturday when chris works) and had ice-cream for breakfast. then i read my book for book club for awhile. then i took out my fancy yarn and knitted for a few hours while listening to my ipod (although i eventually had to turn it off when i found out that my brain could not sing along and count at the same time and i ended up having to take out 2 complete rows - i despise reverse knitting). i did attempt some cleaning - but it was because i wanted to and not because i felt i had to. i didn't get very far but i was pleased.

when chris got home we ran a few errands and got some pad thai for dinner (this after we just talked about how we should not eat out so much). then we watched the tele. i knitted. he called his mother. we played some cribbage. and now we're going to bed. we don't go to bed this early on weekdays!