i could use some adderall....

seriously.


i got up this morning and worked out right away. yay! then - due to the fact that is it currently butt-fucking-cold (what would you call 15 below?) outside i had planned to sit around all day in comfy pj's and try and finish the last of the christmas presents. good idea, right?


i had to go in the 2nd bedroom to get the supplies. that's where it started to go downhill. the room is a mess. i promised chris i'd clean it a long time ago. so i set aside the crafting and decided to clean. but i can't focus. there is just too much stuff!
i tried sorting things into piles. books here. cd's here. pictures here. etc. not working. there isn't even enough room to make piles! i have so many things that need a shelf - a place to display it. we have just one bookshelf. it's driving me nuts. i cannot put this all away when i have nowhere to put it! i'm sick to fuck of having it all stuffed away in boxes. why have it? argh! i find something and think oh this would look great in this room - but oh yeah - i'll have to set it on the floor becuase we have no shelves!


sorry. you know when you're brain just feels like it's going to explode becuase it cannot process more than one thing for 2 seconds at a time? the room needs to be cleaned. don't have a place to put it. the christmas presents need to get finished but i feel guilty just sitting on my ass to do it. the kitchen needs to be cleaned. i need to shred a ton of stuff. laundry needs to be done. the litter box needs to be cleaned. bills need to be paid. i should probably eat at some point. perhaps shower. or maybe i should workout some more. i need a storage container for the wrapping paper. tired of looking at that. how is possible that we that many cd's and mine aren't even over here yet? must remember to send thank you notes that are now incredibly late. have to buy stamps before i can do that. must remember to start 401k. and switch banks. and open up an IRA. what is this? i don't remember having this?


now you see why the title is appropiate. i would like some adderall....but i'm not even sure that would help. a magician would be better. or a carpenter - with a charitable frame of mind who desires nothing more than to help me out. yes. that would nice. anyone?


sigh. i litterally just am sitting here staring/thinking about all of the above mentioned and am clueless about where to start. i start one think about another and start that until i'm just spinning and doing nothing.


((whimper))